I have found it extremely valuable to make a daily practice of connecting to people and things that support me in keeping my focus on the positive and my energy level high, intentionally surrounding myself with that which enriches, nourishes and feeds my spirit!
You create your own kind of *magic* when you find reasons every day to connect to that which brings you JOY!
May 31, 2017
And so it seems that I am still in the midst of flux regarding "what's next" for my life at this point in time, which is neither surprising nor unexpected. Several people have told me in the last few weeks that the first three months are the hardest after the loss of a loved one. It's been a little over two months now for me, but I have never been one to pay much attention to what others consider to be the norm. I do think it's imperative to give ourselves permission to follow the pathway that is personally the best fit for our individual circumstances and if that means it takes more or less time than the average, so be it.
I've pretty much been one who typically marches to the beat of my own inner drummer. I will admit that I have certainly been through the gamut of many different emotions during the last several months. I've been doing my best to let myself feel and experience whatever arises and just be with whatever emotion shows up for as long as it needs to "visit". In my experience thus far, acknowledging and allowing our emotions, whatever they may be, is a vital and significant part of grieving.
I have experienced a broad range of feelings such as utter frustration, mild depression, total confusion, complete exhaustion (often bordering on a zombie-like persona) and more for the better part of the last several months ... but I've also had glimpses and moments of incredible peace, unconditional love, unwavering strength, gratitude, hope and faith in the universe that all is as it should be. I guess you could say it's truly been a roller coaster ride of ups and downs, highs and lows, twists and turns. The ride of a lifetime.
I've been giving this mixed bag of emotions the space to do whatever needs to be done through allowing, accepting, supporting and processing as required. It's actually been quite liberating to observe this emotional journey without judgment, which I'd been guided to do at the onset. Not to say that the road has been all that smooth or without its speed bumps and detours. But I have discovered a new-found appreciation for sincerely letting go of expectations of how I think or anticipate things should turn out. It's quite a profound life lesson to realize when we drop any resistance to what is by responding with love to whatever shows up, things begin to fall into place with much less stress, strife or angst.
Bottom line, this intense chapter of my life just reinforces my long-held notion of why I am here: to add more light to the world through uplifting and inspiring others to find and connect to their JOY and to live as Love, no matter what comes my way! I'm still not sure how this episode of my life is going to look in the days, months or years ahead, but I've been receiving inklings and hints as to possibilities and options to consider.
It's actually kind of exciting to allow things to unfold and come together as they may in their own time. However, I'm also in no hurry as I know I am still healing on many levels and my physical body has been informing me in numerous ways that it undeniably needs more time to rest, recharge and recover from the events of this year.
I liken each new chapter of my journey to finding the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle. And when this specific jigsaw puzzle is finally complete, there will be yet another one and then another in a line of never ending life puzzles to assemble as I travel up the endless ladder of growth and expansion climbing the higher rungs of awareness and consciousness. Each level will reveal its own unique adventures that will provide specific events, possibilities and opportunities explicitly tailored for me to consider and choose on my path.
The key is to enJOY all the steps along the way, from pondering "what's next", to assembling the pieces that fit your life puzzle, discovering the meaning and significance of the finished image and the execution that will complete the picture that is meant just for you ... woo-hoo!
Quotes to Ponder
I'm never sure what's coming next but I'm an open-minded person and I welcome any challenge.
My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance, and in inverse proportion to my expectations.
~Michael J. Fox
I don't spend time wondering what might be next; I just focus on trying to savor each day.
There are no extra pieces in the universe. Everyone is here because he or she has a place to fill, and every piece must fit itself into the big jigsaw puzzle.
Doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment.
... when pondering "what's next" in your life, the secret ingredient is to enJOY all the steps along the way!
May each day bring you more JOY, unexpected and happy surprises and...
...the next step for Livin' in the FUN Zone!